Monthly Archives: August 2013

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celebrating henry

throughout this past pregnancy
i kept peaking ahead
to this month-

august
with a scramble of emotions-
love, fear, anxiety, pain, excitement
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the due date of our daughter
the anniversary of losing henry
i needed to find a way
to remember our sweet son
and the excitement i felt
on the day he was born-
the day i became a mom
in a way
that wasn’t totally 
sad
or 
scary
i needed a celebration.
to find a way to honor 
what a joy he was
in our lives
even
if it was only for just 
11 days
.
something to share 
with our family
who felt the loss of henry
almost as completely as we did
a new tradition
that our future children
would love 
so…
we planned a birthday beach night-
our favorite kind of easy summer celebration

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a sand-side picnic

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our favorite people

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mama-decorated birthday cake

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taps at sunset

and then

after the sun had gone down
we sent paper lanterns
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into the night sky

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decorated with our 
wishes + prayers
for henry patrick

on his first birthday
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and it was
a celebration

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with love and thanks
xo
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she

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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am
oh, oh…
there is so very much to share
and i will
but i’m completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest
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it’s been almost exactly a month
since i’ve posted
and it’s been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love
love. love. love.
with each 
long-awaited 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 
up…

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welcome
sweet birdie
welcome
xoxo

photos: orchardcove