Category Archives: birth

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she

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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am
oh, oh…
there is so very much to share
and i will
but i’m completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest
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it’s been almost exactly a month
since i’ve posted
and it’s been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love
love. love. love.
with each 
long-awaited 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 
up…

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welcome
sweet birdie
welcome
xoxo

photos: orchardcove

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flashbulb

that’s what they call it, right?
a flashbulb moment-
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that instant
when your
life
stops
and
suspends
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when your hopes and dreams and plans
change and shatter
and
disappear

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friday, august 10th
6:33pm

i gave birth

8lbs 2oz, 21.5″
of
baby boy

blue
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after a long, but healthy pregnancy
followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery
we didn’t get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions
instead
he was whisked away-
a little suction
we thought
meconium
we knew
laying
helpless
in the big recovery bed
when doctors came back
so we could “make decisions about our son”
deprived of oxygen
brain trama
seizures
cooling
now
we wait
tests 
and questions without answers
time and healing
but no plans
only prayer
my love
henry patrick waldo jagger
8.10.12
photos: amanda xoxo