Category Archives: pregnancy

there is this…

OR… there WAS that…

a new baby… on the way…

soon!

offically 38 weeks, so yes, VERY soon!

ANNNND then I delivered two weeks early, of course, before i pressed publish

and so, here we are

a family of four

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with two little girls

eeeep! sisters! (we didn’t find out the gender before birth)

and life feels SO full

full in the exhausting, time-flying-yet-sooo-slow, when and HOW do you grocery shop/ clean / cook / BLOG, unison crying, 7pm adult-bedtime type of FULL

BUT, also the heart-bursting, big-sister-kissing, bed-full of GIRLS in matching pjs, newborn snoozing of chest, absolute JOY type of FULL

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and just about every five minutes of the last four weeks I’ve wondered HOW DID WE GET HERE?! and THANK GOODNESS we are HERE.

i won’t shadow this post with the nitty gritty, but this pregnancy was not an easy one for me (emotionally). the dark winter i last spoke about coupled with pregnancy hormones and scary realities we know too much about made me sad and anxious. sharing the news we were expecting felt too presumptuous and even family and close friends who might not have seen us once i’d started showing were shocked and confused by a “new baby!” announcement last month. there are these things i’ve learned i don’t need to apologize or make excuses for…

and so… now…

our littlest girl is here!

eve

eve emerson

born quickly and HEALTHY on the 29th of May

emily is SO excited to have her own baby to “cuh-wool”… she is excited to tell just about anyone about “baby eve!” and rocks her seat, offers a binky from her own mouth and buries her in toys when she makes the slightest of peeps.

we are over the moon

sisters…

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wow. i am so excited for these two to have each other, forever…

forever grateful that our dear friend and amazing photographer christine chitnis was able to capture the first moments when emily met her baby sister.

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she

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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am
oh, oh…
there is so very much to share
and i will
but i’m completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest
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it’s been almost exactly a month
since i’ve posted
and it’s been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love
love. love. love.
with each 
long-awaited 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 
up…

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welcome
sweet birdie
welcome
xoxo

photos: orchardcove

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faith

To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.
                                                        Oscar Wilde

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with summer now upon us
and this next chapter
right around the corner
it’s time to share-
we’re expecting.
the past year has been a roller coaster to be sure-
anticipation, immense joy, soul-crushing heartache, game-changing friendship
fear, hope, anxiety, small miracles, trust
and 
love
now, at 32 weeks
there is no hiding this bump of our soon-to-arrive baby
no, we haven’t shouted this pregnancy from the roof tops-
but
we are so very happy.
and grateful.
and excited.
also, yes, a little scared.
we are taking life one day at a time.
healing
and fostering confidence
we are looking forward
to august-
to remembering our boy
by celebrating his birthday
and to
welcoming
 his little sister
(yes! a girl!)
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flashbulb

that’s what they call it, right?
a flashbulb moment-
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that instant
when your
life
stops
and
suspends
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when your hopes and dreams and plans
change and shatter
and
disappear

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friday, august 10th
6:33pm

i gave birth

8lbs 2oz, 21.5″
of
baby boy

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after a long, but healthy pregnancy
followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery
we didn’t get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions
instead
he was whisked away-
a little suction
we thought
meconium
we knew
laying
helpless
in the big recovery bed
when doctors came back
so we could “make decisions about our son”
deprived of oxygen
brain trama
seizures
cooling
now
we wait
tests 
and questions without answers
time and healing
but no plans
only prayer
my love
henry patrick waldo jagger
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photos: amanda xoxo
waiting

waiting game

today… we are 39 weeks

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anxious and ready
to meet this long-dreamed-of
babe

camped out in blissful little compton
waking to the sound of the swallows
enjoying beach walks
cool breezes
and the luxury of lounging

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all while
counting contractions
news soon-
we hope!
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(growing) family

after my lovely summer baby shower
in little compton
my dear friend amanda
stuck around to snap some family pictures
featuring my 33-week bump
we went to some favorite little compton spots…
town landing beach
(sadly, not a surfing day!)
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nellie knows where we are headed!
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warren’s point beach club
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and then home again
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to enjoy sunset
with a sweet serenade
(baby LOVES music!)
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amanda, we cannot thank you enough for capturing these sweet moments
of great excitement and anticipation
before our little family becomes three (or four, sorry nellie!)
xoxo

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showered with love

in late june
the ladies in my life
all gathered in little compton
on a glorious sunday morning
 for a most wonderful party
in honor of this little boy-to-be and me…
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we were treated to delicious food
    
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 showered with adorable gifts
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reid’s old lederhosen!
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advice was shared

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a (very appropriately-me) game played
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the cutest of cupcakes devoured
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love and laughter 
filled the day
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sisters travelled from miles and miles…

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the boys (+ nellie) took a paddle while we celebrated
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 guests left with these sweet favors
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thank you, thank you
to the greatest friends
and party planners
meredith, meggs and laurie
my cup runneth over…
xoxo
amanda snapped the photos throughout the day. 
thank you AH, i am so grateful to have these beautiful shots to remember the day!

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july, half-spent

summer, here 
is always chock-full
(thus, the worse-than-usual blogging. please excuse.)

theresa is here

we’ve had beach nights
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and welcome cookouts
 forth of july festivities
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and farmer’s market delights
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nursery nesting
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and a baby belly that feels to have reached
max-stretchability
more than ever
i am thankful
for summers spent by the sea…
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i’m off to float!
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friends, already…

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we are starting to wonder 
how our pets will respond 
when we bring the little guy home 
 nellie 
has definetly become more protective of me as this pregnacy has progressed 
but she is still quite a puppy and can get quite spastic 
 lately, though 
she loves to lay 
spooned up beside me 
head on the baby belly