Category Archives: summer

there is this…

OR… there WAS that…

a new baby… on the way…

soon!

offically 38 weeks, so yes, VERY soon!

ANNNND then I delivered two weeks early, of course, before i pressed publish

and so, here we are

a family of four

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with two little girls

eeeep! sisters! (we didn’t find out the gender before birth)

and life feels SO full

full in the exhausting, time-flying-yet-sooo-slow, when and HOW do you grocery shop/ clean / cook / BLOG, unison crying, 7pm adult-bedtime type of FULL

BUT, also the heart-bursting, big-sister-kissing, bed-full of GIRLS in matching pjs, newborn snoozing of chest, absolute JOY type of FULL

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and just about every five minutes of the last four weeks I’ve wondered HOW DID WE GET HERE?! and THANK GOODNESS we are HERE.

i won’t shadow this post with the nitty gritty, but this pregnancy was not an easy one for me (emotionally). the dark winter i last spoke about coupled with pregnancy hormones and scary realities we know too much about made me sad and anxious. sharing the news we were expecting felt too presumptuous and even family and close friends who might not have seen us once i’d started showing were shocked and confused by a “new baby!” announcement last month. there are these things i’ve learned i don’t need to apologize or make excuses for…

and so… now…

our littlest girl is here!

eve

eve emerson

born quickly and HEALTHY on the 29th of May

emily is SO excited to have her own baby to “cuh-wool”… she is excited to tell just about anyone about “baby eve!” and rocks her seat, offers a binky from her own mouth and buries her in toys when she makes the slightest of peeps.

we are over the moon

sisters…

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wow. i am so excited for these two to have each other, forever…

forever grateful that our dear friend and amazing photographer christine chitnis was able to capture the first moments when emily met her baby sister.

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august, fully loaded…

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just when we get
deep into the delicious ease of july-
that sandy, joyful, barefoot, afternoon-napping bit of summer…
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august arrives-
uninvited.
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august is…
hard.
and fast… too fast…
heavy rememberances
dreaded goodbyes
twisted and mixed up with
joyful celebrations
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 wham! bam!
and it’s over-
like a tornado
through your soul
and then…
there your are.
exhausted. 
battered. 
and standing, yes… standing…
but alone
on an empty beach
everyone gone
but so not forgotten…
and every year it just feels harder-
this deep-in-your-bones emptiness
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and here we are
home
but so.very. homesick.
for our tribe.
and those summer days
we wait all year for…

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all of a sudden, we are here…
sitting on the edge of fall
not ready for the jump-

but before we can even take one last breath
school and meetings and a calendar full of appointments
are pushing us in.
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celebrating henry

throughout this past pregnancy
i kept peaking ahead
to this month-

august
with a scramble of emotions-
love, fear, anxiety, pain, excitement
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the due date of our daughter
the anniversary of losing henry
i needed to find a way
to remember our sweet son
and the excitement i felt
on the day he was born-
the day i became a mom
in a way
that wasn’t totally 
sad
or 
scary
i needed a celebration.
to find a way to honor 
what a joy he was
in our lives
even
if it was only for just 
11 days
.
something to share 
with our family
who felt the loss of henry
almost as completely as we did
a new tradition
that our future children
would love 
so…
we planned a birthday beach night-
our favorite kind of easy summer celebration

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a sand-side picnic

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our favorite people

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mama-decorated birthday cake

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taps at sunset

and then

after the sun had gone down
we sent paper lanterns
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into the night sky

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decorated with our 
wishes + prayers
for henry patrick

on his first birthday
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and it was
a celebration

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with love and thanks
xo
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she

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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am
oh, oh…
there is so very much to share
and i will
but i’m completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest
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it’s been almost exactly a month
since i’ve posted
and it’s been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love
love. love. love.
with each 
long-awaited 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 
up…

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welcome
sweet birdie
welcome
xoxo

photos: orchardcove

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rainy summer sundays

those lazy summer days
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hazy with light rain
guiltlessly off the beach
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 sprawled across a couch
falling deeper
into a good book
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lunching

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with the whole crew
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around the family table
in the light of day
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lobster 

laughter
and
full bellies

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sunhats

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waiting…

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happy list

a collection
of the little things that have made my week

OH shnikes!
i’ve been meaning and meaning and meaning
to get to this place
but
JUNE!
is here!
and half gone!
life has been busy, busy, busy
which, i suppose
is good-
these last two months-
filled with holidays celebrating parenthood
and warming tide pools filled with splashing babies
has left my heart heavier than i expected…
but, of course
there are the very happy things
that come with early summer, too…
dining al fresco
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in our sweet backyard
rising with the sun
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and finding such beauty
custom ellas
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on their way to a colorado wedding
(and to be worn with cowboy boots! love!)
a surprise delivery
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local, organic, summer berries
oh. my. yum.
and
the most happy thing of all-
the arrival of my people
those friends who really are family
whose summer migration north
makes every. little. thing.
feel
just

right.

Hallelujah.
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waiting game

today… we are 39 weeks

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anxious and ready
to meet this long-dreamed-of
babe

camped out in blissful little compton
waking to the sound of the swallows
enjoying beach walks
cool breezes
and the luxury of lounging

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all while
counting contractions
news soon-
we hope!
1st photo by amanda, taken 33 weeks / bassinet, ready for babe
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july, half-spent

summer, here 
is always chock-full
(thus, the worse-than-usual blogging. please excuse.)

theresa is here

we’ve had beach nights
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and welcome cookouts
 forth of july festivities
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and farmer’s market delights
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nursery nesting
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and a baby belly that feels to have reached
max-stretchability
more than ever
i am thankful
for summers spent by the sea…
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i’m off to float!
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happy summer!

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the official first day of summer
and we are in a full-on heat wave!
extreme heat and pregnancy
(not to mention a very long to-do list of house projects)
are not mixing well for me-
but
tomorrow…
to the beach
for my first float of the season 
how are you beating the heat?